I've been worried about you, mostly, the more I think about it. I'd always wondered what would've happened if things hadn't turned out the way they did... Would you have tried to go back a second time?
[More specifically, there's something eerily reflective of herself in the Exarch that rings all too clear to her, and she doesn't like it. Sometimes she'll joke that she's the only one allowed to be self-sacrificing, but other times she'll really mean it. Even if the notion has loosened in recent moons, the idea of someone shouldering something like that on her account doesn't sit well with her.]
Even once is too much for anyone, I think. To say nothing of the uncertainty of the present, the idea the current you may just cease to be if things get sorted out. Maybe I'm just overthinking it all... call it a bad habit.
[She smiles wryly, her thoughts still not completely on one set track, but having expressed that much... perhaps there are things she can do to lighten it some. Treating him like a person, like the man he used to be rather than this mysterious all-knowing figure.]
So I guess this is a roundabout way of asking if you want to go get dinner? Or do something fun?
[ The book is closed softly, the Exarch's ears giving a flicker as his smile grows softly fond. So he was right, she is worried about him.
Perhaps she's right to be, it was an unfathomable risk they took no matter how well calculated. There'd be no second chances, for while he could potentially move the Tower through time once more, where would it stand? The Crystarium has stood for a century, Norvrandt had no need for two. As for what dark fate might befall him, well, in truth as he learned what needed to be done that became an integral part of his plan.
Bringing that up now feels cruel, however. It's enough that he survived and that they were ultimately victorious. ]
To speak plain, we share at least that worry. There are times, several times of late, where I find myself wondering what my continued existence truly means...
[ So, what to do with himself. Whether he is actually here to stay until the Tower claims him completely or time more literally catches up to him...he does like Irhya's suggestion. ]
...though if it means I am free to partake in some frivolity, then who am I to refuse?
Being phased out of existence is not the reward you deserve after all that.
[And even in her trials as Warrior of Light, she cannot even begin to fathom the strain that he has kept so carefully hidden for so many years. For all he has been through, he deserves better. Irhya just has to wonder how much she can give that will suffice...]
So I say we work on getting you a better one. Not that time spent being frivolous really amounts to much just yet, but...
[A self-conscious glance to the side. Some habits die hard, no matter how much closer toward order she's brought her chaotic mind over the past few moons.]
Why don't I cook for you this time? There's a small kitchenette in the inn room, and I brought some things over from the Source recently to use, too. I've been working on some small lanterns for the Crystarium's kids, so it's a little messy still, but if that's all right...
[ She knows that, he's sure, and it isn't what she meant but he offers the feeble protest all the same. Victory really was prize enough on its own, especially after such a long, slow battle. Maybe he shouldn't be 'wasting' this chance on leisure--though of course that's not all he'd do.
And now he's second guessing himself. He didn't have this problem before...
The Exarch blinks and blinks again when he realizes what Irhya is offering. The idea of sharing a meal, perhaps at the Wandering Stairs, was one thing but in her suite? And she'd cook for him, this time? He feels his face growing warm. ]
That is--yes, that would be...that would be more than all right.
[She's not about to argue with him over what he does or doesn't deserve, not here and now, so instead Irhya decides to show him, reaching to grab his yet-uncrystallized hand and slip her palm into his.
(It's nice, she thinks, not to have to crane her neck upwards for once.)]
Let's go, then. You don't mind walking like this, I hope?
[Emphasizing her point, she edges a little closer and smiles brightly, not wanting to look like she's dragging him off against his will or something.]
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Date: 2019-07-22 05:11 am (UTC)[Her ears tilt low.]
I've been worried about you, mostly, the more I think about it. I'd always wondered what would've happened if things hadn't turned out the way they did... Would you have tried to go back a second time?
[More specifically, there's something eerily reflective of herself in the Exarch that rings all too clear to her, and she doesn't like it. Sometimes she'll joke that she's the only one allowed to be self-sacrificing, but other times she'll really mean it. Even if the notion has loosened in recent moons, the idea of someone shouldering something like that on her account doesn't sit well with her.]
Even once is too much for anyone, I think. To say nothing of the uncertainty of the present, the idea the current you may just cease to be if things get sorted out. Maybe I'm just overthinking it all... call it a bad habit.
[She smiles wryly, her thoughts still not completely on one set track, but having expressed that much... perhaps there are things she can do to lighten it some. Treating him like a person, like the man he used to be rather than this mysterious all-knowing figure.]
So I guess this is a roundabout way of asking if you want to go get dinner? Or do something fun?
[At stupid o'clock in the morning.
...Riiiiight.]
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Date: 2019-07-29 04:56 am (UTC)Perhaps she's right to be, it was an unfathomable risk they took no matter how well calculated. There'd be no second chances, for while he could potentially move the Tower through time once more, where would it stand? The Crystarium has stood for a century, Norvrandt had no need for two. As for what dark fate might befall him, well, in truth as he learned what needed to be done that became an integral part of his plan.
Bringing that up now feels cruel, however. It's enough that he survived and that they were ultimately victorious. ]
To speak plain, we share at least that worry. There are times, several times of late, where I find myself wondering what my continued existence truly means...
[ So, what to do with himself. Whether he is actually here to stay until the Tower claims him completely or time more literally catches up to him...he does like Irhya's suggestion. ]
...though if it means I am free to partake in some frivolity, then who am I to refuse?
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Date: 2019-07-30 05:53 am (UTC)[And even in her trials as Warrior of Light, she cannot even begin to fathom the strain that he has kept so carefully hidden for so many years. For all he has been through, he deserves better. Irhya just has to wonder how much she can give that will suffice...]
So I say we work on getting you a better one. Not that time spent being frivolous really amounts to much just yet, but...
[A self-conscious glance to the side. Some habits die hard, no matter how much closer toward order she's brought her chaotic mind over the past few moons.]
Why don't I cook for you this time? There's a small kitchenette in the inn room, and I brought some things over from the Source recently to use, too. I've been working on some small lanterns for the Crystarium's kids, so it's a little messy still, but if that's all right...
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Date: 2019-08-05 08:48 pm (UTC)[ She knows that, he's sure, and it isn't what she meant but he offers the feeble protest all the same. Victory really was prize enough on its own, especially after such a long, slow battle. Maybe he shouldn't be 'wasting' this chance on leisure--though of course that's not all he'd do.
And now he's second guessing himself. He didn't have this problem before...
The Exarch blinks and blinks again when he realizes what Irhya is offering. The idea of sharing a meal, perhaps at the Wandering Stairs, was one thing but in her suite? And she'd cook for him, this time? He feels his face growing warm. ]
That is--yes, that would be...that would be more than all right.
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Date: 2019-08-09 12:22 am (UTC)[She's not about to argue with him over what he does or doesn't deserve, not here and now, so instead Irhya decides to show him, reaching to grab his yet-uncrystallized hand and slip her palm into his.
(It's nice, she thinks, not to have to crane her neck upwards for once.)]
Let's go, then. You don't mind walking like this, I hope?
[Emphasizing her point, she edges a little closer and smiles brightly, not wanting to look like she's dragging him off against his will or something.]